Monday, August 13, 2007

Well, I've done it

I just got to work after dropping my mom and my little girl off at the airport. My baby is going to spend a week and a half with my mom. I've never been away from her that long. I'm sad. I know that she's growing up so fast. And now, there's this hole to prove it. I know that she'll do just fine and have a great time. Me, I don't know. Fortunately, DH won't be going on a business trip this week as we had originally thought. So, we'll have each other and our little boy this week. I'm not sure if I'm more teary-eyed because I hate goodbyes or because I know that she's growing up. I knew this time was coming. It's just hard to let her go. I know that I have to. But, I'm selfish and I don't want her to go. I sit here and watch the flight updates to see if their plane has left. It's not due to leave for another 40 minutes, but that will be what I do for the next 40 minutes. And after the 40 minutes, I'll be counting down the days and hours until she returns. How do other moms do this and not lose their sanity in the process? I want her to grow up, but I want her to still need me too. I know that we'll talk practically every day. I know that she's in good hands, no great hands. Even though I know that, I'm still selfish. I tried to be positive about this whole thing, but this morning, it just got to me. My little baby girl is growing up and she's big enough to go on a trip without me. And she's big enough to enjoy herself and know that it's okay. After all, isn't that what we're raising her to be? Independent, self-confident, active, determined and eager? God, help me get through this week without my baby being around.

Monday, August 6, 2007

Wow, I'm a slacker!

Okay, so I'll admit it, I haven't even thought of coming here and posting since I posted the last time. Life has been crazy busy and I just let it slide.

What's happened in the past month? You're guess is as good as mine, but I'll try to remember...

We had two caseworker visits
We went to Florida for my SIL's surprize BDay party
I went to Texas Scrapfest

and I'm sure there have been so many other things... Why else would I have neglected my duties to post?

I'd like to hope that things will slow down now, but they won't. Audra is doing a Cookie Diva thing this weekend and thus has rehearsals all week. Mom will be here on Thursday and will take Audra home with her on Sunday. Audra will be gone for a week and a half. She'll be back the week before School starts up again!!! YIKES, is it already that time again??? where did our summer go.

Well, I'm off to get back to work, but just wanted to post so I could get back in the habit.